A question I posted on a forum.
Hey,
Does anyone find that there's one special theme the voices stick to for a day or so?
Today, it started for me as usual, them telling me what to do at work. I imagined a woman there who said it was time to sign myself into a hospital. I just thought if that was going to be what would happen when I got there, or if it's something that did happen. Nothing special happened, andyway.
Now I'm done with work and it seems that the voices are playing this game that they have completed a new personality for me, and "she" (I'm male) is the one who is going to take over, that she will be the one who's going to answer questions, etc. I just laughed and I hear them talking to her and I have to chuckle. Then some guy says that they are talking to "her," not me, and if I had anything to say that I should relay that through "her." Oh, sure. He's also the guy who tells me that I have to put up with this and let the other voices have their say. They've always had their say, and it aint nice. (He just told his audience of other voices that they are looking at a "case of complete denial." And a woman said, "It's because "you won't believe.")
Does that happen to anyone else? The voices are usually all over the map, but so far today it looks like they have an agenda.
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Continuing from the question above:
So, X tells me that "she" tells X what I want. Since "she" is X's creation (see post on Navy) it's just a way to scam her audience. Yesterday, someone asked this "she," which seems to be X's daughter CC, what was her favorite restaurant. CC said, "I don't know. I'll ask him." Then she turns to me and asks, and I'm thinking that I never go out to eat so I guess CC's on her own as to what restaurant is someone's favorite.
With them creating this role for CC, I guess I'm supposed to look like I'm talking to myself. Oh well.
CC just said that I don't like her, turned to me and said, "Would you accept S____?" S is some woman I worked with years ago. I think they're trying to find some female that I would talk to and confide and just be soooo friendly with. I told her, "No. You're just fine." She said, "I win. He accepts me." No, I don't, I don't need to go through this game.
CC said that I should "C" her mother, X. "C" as in cover, to tell a lie about what X did all these years and lie that I let X create this thing that CC is playing out in order to get out of the Navy. X created that without my knowing, and when I got ready to leave, she asked, "Do you remember what we talked about?" I thought about that, that "get out of going by wearing a dress, etc." I said, "No. That's illegal. I'm not going to do that." Then I was going to leave, but in the opposite direction, away from the door. She said, really fake, "Have a nice time in your 'new life.'" I knew then that it was going to be a failure. Should have known when I woke up in the middle of her brainwashing when she read to me, "Then you pull down the sargeant's pants..." I woke up and thought, "What?" (see previous post). That's always been her way of getting out of trouble. Same tactic that she used in 1967 (see post about first grade). In the first place, getting out of reporting for duty by using some psycho excuse wasn't anything I would do, and she did it anyway as she's always done. With permission or without permission, she is a criminal. Either way, perpetrator or accomplice.
Anyway, why would she be still using this thing she created? The Navy isn't looking for me. And they haven't been looking for me. That was 26 years ago. I went, I failed and that was it. I even talked to them over the phone when I got home. There was a lot of times I heard some people say, "Shh. He doesn't know." Since X does that 'put a dress on him and call him crazy' thing more than once, it was just an opportunity for her to keep me quiet again. When I told my mom that I signed up, the first thing she said was that I "ruined everything my father worked for." Didn't know what that meant, but considering what X did at her house, which, as she put it, "We really smoked the B_____ (my nickname when I was little)."
So, since then, she's been pushing this transtesticle thing on me, passing it off as the real me, **I just heard someone say to give it a chance** and all that. Well, that's not anything I wanted. It's just my older sister T's agenda from when I was seven and the same tactic X used more than once since I was seven. I know that I feel their prompts, mostly female names to 'act like' and they've showed me this Monica Bell thing, the imitation of some guy I worked with, CM. They must have made me copy him or 'imagine' what he was like in drag. The thing is, I never saw him in drag. But they have made me 'watch' and 'copy' drag queens. Then 'wake them up' when X needs to prove something.
When I got the cameras in the house and no one could take me out without being noticed, then the real so called 'harassment' directed toward them started. As I've seen before, they provoke harassment aimed toward themselves (get me to scream and yell at them) and they act like it just suddenly happened. What a coincidence that it starts when they can't continue with their 'training.' Now she claims that I was dragged (pun intended) over to her house for foreign language lessons. Why would I need foreign language lessons when I grew up around that foreign language, studied it in college, and practiced it on my own? I've since stopped keeping up with this foreign language because it just puts me through some or the garbage and harassment they put me through at their house, if that's where it was happening.
So now they got X's daughter, CC, playing some female, which is an over the top copy of Mae West, to claim that I am, or the 'spirit/ghost' that just has come 'such a long way to help me' (as she put it once yesterday). I guess X wants to use this CC/MaeW to pass on what I'm supposed to say or embarass myself with in public. Yesterday, this CC/MaeW told me that there will be "two exposures" before I remember something, some kind of clue, or something. I thought, "Great, they're going to get me to expose myself in public. Well, there's other ways of exposing oneself." It aint happening.
This guy who's playing along with X, hoping to get some information from her in her crappy "everything covered by the spirits/ghosts channeling" and they will send messages to remove these curses, which only means that they want to replace my old associations that involve them with new, bland ones, tried to get me to listen to the gay community for "support." It's just going to be an endless indoctrination into how to handle this so-called alternate personality, this "woman that he wants to be," to look for trust. Not happening, and if they force it, it's just going to end up wasting so much time and a lot of hours of listening to them bitch at me and I'll bitch at them. Like I said before, I cut out the dead wood in my life over 20 years ago. I know that and they know that, so why bother with this crap of trusting them and try to get me to accept this phony female helper he's got (both CC/MaeW and this short, round woman who's been playing games with that community for years now--she seems suspiciously like X's sister).
What X has to cover herself happened years ago, and she still victimizes her victims. And with CC involved, it goes back to June 1985, too.
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