The biggest lie they use to get you to cooperate with them is the "We are helping you. This is a special way of treating you. The other option is that you will go to jail because you are a criminal." By cooperation, I mean they only give you choices that serve their purpose, saying "NO" or rejecting all the so-call options they give you is never acceptable to them. By criminal, I mean they will use the worst accusation against you, and that is that "you are a child abuser and we have proof, so just cooperate and follow our directions."
That has been used against me for years. I am not a molestor, not even close. For example, late last year, as I was listening to their brainwashing that runs through my mind while I'm awake, and usually at work, I kept imagining that I was having a conversation with a kid, early teens, I guess. Nothing important was talked about, but after relentlessly being forced to listen to these conversations, and knowing that now they are using kids in their harassment, I paused, and thought to myself (which would have been heard by whoever was monitoring me) that I got to let those people know that I know it is nothing but a form of harassment against me, and if I said something outrageous, they would have to come forward and show themselves. So I came on to the kid, and sure enough, along came the ones who orchestrate these phoney scenarios, and now they had to explain themselves.
The first thing I said after that was, "who is holding the phone to my head. I don't contact people in anyway, phone or otherwise, and I always start the remembering after the conversations are already started. So I put an end to it, and what are they going to do? Arrest me for thinking? How are they going to explain it to the dupes they always find to "help me"? It is just an endless replay of the incident at the store in 1985, get me freaked out, then put me somewhere so they can "test" me.
So, according to them, that was an admission of my being a child molestor. Hardly. I will screw up their tests any way I can. But, I found myself sitting in front of a computer, and when the words child molester came up, I woke up and didn't follow their "scripted" scenario. There was a woman to my left, watching what I was reading, I don't think that I was typing anything. And there was a younger woman sitting to my right at her own computer. So the woman next to me typed in with, "Wasn't your father into pornography?" I told her that these lies are getting sick, and at one point, the typist stood up and said she didn't want to continue, and some man ordered her to go on, that it was her job. I am assuming they were some kind of police.
So, I got pissed, it has been nothing but "you are a child molestor (not), your father had pornography everywhere (not), and we found this box of sex toys in your room (not)." So I got up, it turns out I was in somebody's house, and passed by some guys who were sitting in a hallway, just looking at me. And there was the same guy who has been orchestrating harassment against me for a long time. He and I paused before we got to the hallway, and he pointed to a negative hallucination of a woman showing off a fur coat, and kept asking to associate with it, as in what does that mean to you? (one of the ultimate time-wasting questions) So, it was an overweight woman, showing off a fur coat. Who cares? But that's not good enough for that guy, the answer has to be something other than what it is. And it wasn't until I thought of the girl in the sixth grade who had a big furry coat, did I win the special prize of "now you got the idea that I want to put in your head" and you win the right to move now. Yes, a forty year old association with a fur coat. Never mind that I was just subjected to being called a child molestor, my dead father slandered by someone who never knew him, and all he wants is for me to relate to something as a ten year old. It's only to keep me on his leash. He is a criminal.
That lady who always says she's looking for answers tells me that I should get off of T's case, that T doesn't know. She said it is just them (she and others) playing out my worst fears. That's brainwashing and harassment, I told her. Of course, she would deny it, she's a criminal.
No sense in getting fixed up after 26 years, way too late. After all the training of...god knows what. Like the guy said, "only my version is coming out." Brainwashing. They take me to some phony doctor while I'm asleep, tell the doctor to "treat the personality of the child molestor, the woman, the violent one, .....take your pick." Then they take me back to where they took me from, and if they want to, they'll say, "remember this or that" and I go through the day remembering what went on, and as always, it's only in your head, they'll say. when I started to blog, I heard a lot of "just sign this paper, saying you agreed to it from the start." I refuse, how can I sign something knowing I'm asleep. I told them to send a copy of it to my house, in the mail, I'll get it that way. then it's the old , well its here right now. and the "all you have to do is apologize to T" and "shouldn't you apologize to the gay community" no and no. I have nothing to do with either, but that makes it a sure thing that those things will be all I'll be hearing every f**king day. they got desperate when I put cameras in the house, and they can't walk in and out like they always did, and they had to move their harassment to stores, work, and that's about all the places I go. the big push for them has been "you have to admit that you are gay." what's the real deal about that I do not know, there is usually some unrelated crap that I suddenly remember when I even think of admitting to some things.
or is it that when I 'go gay' it's just going to make that trash about dressing up be my new version of gay, courtesy of those three? They are professional harassers.
Multiples are bull. No such thing
even by the old definition--a personality form from trauma usually at an early age, that PERSISTS FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME, AND THROUGH MANY YEARS.
Any shrink can create something, and pass it off as a personality. And, all my so-called personalities are imitations, imitations of imitations, some of the porn films they showed me, pictures of people I do not know, taking an event from my past, and the ever popular "imagine that"...
like in the nineties it was their thing take a film star, and "oh, you know him. he knows you, act like you know him, pretend you are talking to him. and more than once, you are visiting him...and in the end, when they say 'wake up (such and such person), i look around, and there i am, and there are other people , real people by the way, and they have some video of me acting like a fool, and they have soooooooooo much proof of "we have to keep him this way, because for some reason, w can't wake up, because we put him in a contrived child molesting thing and he knows that if he wakes up, it's going to be right where we want him (and put him there in the first place) It's the all time favorite threat for their kind (harassers)--your a child molestor and a homosexual.
Think now, remember later...HOW do you want to remember this? when you light up a cigarette, when you eat, when you take a bath, when you shave, no matter,,,it's all torture. and of course, they let you pick the torture, saying no is never an option.
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