ANOTHER POST FROM A FORUM

MARCH 15, 2012  6:49PM EDT

QUESTION:

A member of the forum asked how comfortable people who chat in the forums feel about it: scared because it may feel forced onto them, is there a vulnerability factor, is being unknown make it easier?


I feel very comfortable sharing my life with the sz here because where else can I find people with the same experiences? And some of them are almost exactly my symptoms. It's different here than discussion or one on one talks, because you can chose to read about the topics you want to read about and when you want. And it doesn't take long before you've read a very wide range of topics.


You mentioned that maybe real life forces us to come here. If you mean in the sense that there are limited ways to get help and those ways might not suit everyone, so people come here-- I'd say that I don't feel forced at all. But, I have blogged about my real life for over a year. I started that because of not being able to go out and talk to people face to face. And, on the chance that I freak out real bad, my blog is the first place with my history to start any therapy. I grew up around a lot of abusive people who chose to harass their children into telling lies about real life events.

So, I started blogging the truth. I'm not going to be in the position of needing help someday and the only people who will control what help is given are the people who started the problems in the first place. I have nothing to do with those abusive people nowadays, but I'll be damned if they are going to come around and tell any professional help their versions of the "truth" or have the last word on what my life was and is now.

I finished most of my blog. There's just a few important things left to say there. If a subject comes up here in the forum that fits my situation, I'll write about it on my blog. When I slowed down on the blogging, I thought, "What now? Go back to lying in bed, listening to the non stop harassment for hours?" It goes on, but I'm not lying down. So, I came here. To me, it would've seemed like a step backward to stop telling?saying? what is going on with me.

**A voice just said, "I don't need you blogging." That's the one that says she's my real conscience or she wants me to accept her as a guide. I don't accept them as anything but harassment. If there's such a thing as the Voice's Court she should be tried for failing so many times and be dealt with accordingly. And no, I'm not going to start a Voice's Court. Ha.**

The vulnerability factor for me is very low. I have nothing to lose. As for anonymity on the Internet, I have a cousin who has the same name as I do. It's an uncommon name and I don't want anyone to confuse him with me. Sometimes, after a death threat from a voice, I think, "Well make sure you got the right person. I'd hate for you to mistake him for me."

If you mean that telling about myself (or telling on myself, as the case may be) is easier to do because no one would know who I am, I really don't care much about it because I've already blogged about it