WEIRD "WAKE UP" CALL

November 29, 2011 10:23 am EDT

Not much happened in real life today. I filed a Freedom of Information Act request for the documents about my one day stint in the Navy. I asked because I have the enlistment papers, went there, and stuff happened and then I'm back home. No one mentions it -- it was in 1985. I remember signing something, being directed to sign, but I didn't know what it was, so I filed a form for it and it should be back within a month or so. The FBI, when I filed an FOIA request, got back to me within a month.

I woke up a little late for work, at about 2:35 am. Just before I became completely awake, I was reading something to myself or out loud, I don't know. It was typed in capital letters, bold faced. It read to me like a police file or something. It began, "The death of JO___ (my nephew) can be explained by (or, was caused by) W__ (my name, first middle and last). " When I read that part, someone pointed out a wallet sized photo of me which was paper clipped to the upper right corner. I read on, "JO___  ( it referred to him as my son, and I thought, 'I don't have a son.') died because someone found out that it was his son and was a product of incest." Then it went on to say that I killed him.

What rot. There is no incest between me and my sisters and I'm really not even surprised that someone would make me read something like that. And why do they do that? Because someone, or there's some trigger later on, that makes me repeat it out loud later, no matter where I am. This has been done before. When I worked at the gas station where X's son knew a coworker of mine, I remember standing in the store and that guy from the McC event, the one I call Fatso, was with a different coworker there and they were both looking at me. Fatso said to the woman, "Look at his eyes." She leaned in, arms folded, and said, "He's reading." You can tell when someone's reading. Their eyes stop and start after a few words. I don't know if I was saying something or not.

I stopped reading and didn't think much of it. I'm used to being slandered and it's no surprised that a rumor like that would get started after I told someone I worked with years ago about something my older sister, T said to me when I was 12. (More about that later.) Anyway, that baby died 25 years ago, and it was not the child of T. Did I read that years ago and someone decided to 'wake it up' now?

But, all in all, I wasn't upset about it. It only figured that they're still making dirt out of anything they can, and maybe if my sister, the baby's mother, heard about this, she would be mad enough to stop participating in this harassment. Then I thought of my cousin who has the same name as I do, and thought, "Well, who knows about him and his sister." My older sister, T, laughed about how he (my cousin) married a woman who had the same name and body type as his sister, and as she put it, "What does that mean?"

Overall, I think it's just more of the same tactic to get me embarassed or mad, and like I said, it's been almost 30 years (27, actually) of this and nothing surprises me and I can't get too mad about what I'm not allowed to answer to in real life.