January 2, 2015

January 2, 2015     3:52 pm         Werner K Stoebermann Warner Stoberman

Nothing new in real life. My dog had a bad case of diarrhea the past week that came from stopped up anal sacs. It was gross. Poop everywhere, but at least he used the newspaper. He kept attacking me because I had to give him baths so his ass wouldn't get infected. He's 13 years old now and mean as ever.

Still delivering papers overnight and it's the same thing over and over. Go to work, go to the store, go home. And I like it that way.

As for the voices and related crap:
I just had it out with X's daughter, CF. Since I'm blogging, they are trying to mix up everything that they can. CF mentioned that she is waiting for a schedule, meaning how and when am I supposed to remember the crap they are doing, which would include their stupid intrusive thoughts in the middle of their cut and paste conversations.

I said that I don't want to be scheduled. She said that she just mentioned the word and I supposedly came up with the meaning of "how and when to remember, (which also goes back to the store incident in 1985)." I told her that I could never imagine any definition or association with the word schedule that they have been using. And I asked bitch why would she go along with any such preposterous thing.

She, as always, claims to be helping, but they are creating problems, and I have been telling them that they are not qualified to help. And of course they end with "you're suicidal and we don't want you to kill yourself." And then I tell them that it is worse for them to even think of doing anything with a suicidal person. They are not qualified and they are criminals.

I have been telling these assholes off for many decades.

And since rapist X died, her daughter is replaying (waking up) conversations with her idiotic mother and is probably making claims that I believe in ghosts and I should listen to what her mother is saying. She even prompts with, "did you hear what my mother said?"

And of course they are using my sister, J, nowadays, too. They expect her to be the dumbass who, as they put it, "will put you away." I tell them that I will get a lawyer on J's ass to leave me alone.

X's family has a preposterous, idiotic idea that I have to wear a dress, which was X's abuse in 1967 and onward, but they claim that it is because I wanted to be my sister, T, who also has a history of abuse and abusing. So, in effect, they want to justify X's abuse.

I don't wear dresses or think of myself as a female of any sort. And, as we all know by now, X is a liar and has been accusing everyone and everything else as being the culprits for what she herself did. And in any case, way, shape or form, X will lie, and dressing up her victim to allegedly find the truth is stupid and her family is as criminal as she is when they start their crap up.

They claim that the blank spots during the episodes they create, such as McC's (the store in 1985), the episode at Arby's in 1986, the episode when the Navy 'woke up' what X and her relatives did, are all blank spots because I supposedly turn into this transtesticle thing. It is X's abuse, her little creation to use to lie all over again.

Trying to get me to believe that blank spots can be filled in by her bullshit is what is going on and I'm not buying into it.

I've said (wrote) it many times before to people who keep trying to fill in the blanks. I tell them it's not going to happen. You will know nothing more than you know now. Thirty years after any episode what you remember will be the same, because that's the way it was and always will be. And if any voice in the head claims to know, don't believe it, and if any real life person claims to know, don't believe it either because they are probably the ones who caused you trouble to begin with and it would not be in their best interest to tell you the truth. When's the last time an abusive criminal actually helped their victim?

Again, they are not qualified to help, they are only creating and using problems to cover their asses. Dead asses or otherwise.

As for their claims that they have to treat me this way because they claim my poor innocent mother might be in danger and they use their harassment to control me, I say they must not care about my poor innocent mother because if I'm so dangerous, how could they let her live alone with me for the past 15 years.

And J just said, "I cannot tell you what you are supposed to figure out." Really, asshole? J should fuck off. I know the truth and people can read it here. What they want me to "figure out" are their head games. They put me through crap when I'm sleeping and how the hell would I know what garbage they do, and then they claim I have to figure it out.


It's more harassment. They want their victims to run around, go on a snipe hunt, play guessing games with themselves to try to figure things out. Again, they are creating bullshit and claim their victim has to figure it out. And then they prompt thoughts to make their victims think of the crap they've put in their victim's head and claim, "see, it's just like we told everyone."

I'll say it again. Just by saying or prompting, they can make anyone think of anything, but they can't make anyone believe anything. It's the part when they stop their victim from explaining anything, the times they stop their victims before their victims can say, "I don't believe that at all," is how they get their victims looking like they believe in things they don't.