JANUARY 24, 2013

January 24, 2013  6:15pm EDT

Nothing new in real life, but X and her kids, CC and FF, and X's sisters are going nuts.

Woke up when I heard three knocks on the window downstairs, and it immediately began again. Hearing X and her dumbass kids screwing over everything. They say that they have already planned out everything that covers their ass. **right now, CF is giving directions on typing, trying to make me think that the transtesticle thing they created and used is something I have to agree with, which I don't** Anyway, other voices keep saying for me to never contradict X. X has been passing herself off as someone, or the only one, who can communicate what she alleges I'm want to say or what I'm thinking. But when I hear her repeating what she says are my comments or answers, they don't match with what I'm thinking or what I believe. She twists things around to her advantage and adds crap that doesn't make any sense.

It seems like she's been making me Skype or they've made some dumbass videos of what she controls talking to people that I don't know, don't want to know, or only thought of in passing. I'm not buying into it, they may or may not be doing that, and just go on a "fuck this stupid bitch" tirade, but X most likely doesn't let that go through when she, X, speaks for me.

And, of course, always passing it off as "it's a woman. he vants to be the voooman." She's lying and she knows it. X is still using her rape victim to get to agree with her, the one X trained to want my sister's dress (see previous post). No mistake about it, X did the 1967 abuse and raped me and physically assaulted my mother in 1969 (see previous post).

And she has her dumbass sister, OH, still pushing some queer agenda she wants me to follow, and then that most probably will lead to some transtesticle thing they set up. X fucked me over the day before I left for the Navy, I've posted about that before, and from what I gather, X's crap woke up in Cleveland. They keep saying that I had no idea about joining the Navy, etc, but X just wants to play out her brainwashing and harassment.

There is no way that the rapist X should be speaking for me or passing anything off as me because it's all shit that she needs to cover her and her kids' asses.

**I hear one of them now as I type this, saying "now T." ** They are trying to pass off this blog as being written by "so many different personalities" that no one should even believe what I am writing. Putting things in writing is better, and certainly more valid, than anyone hearing what X and her family make me say through all their contrivences and flat out lies.

There's always some big problem that I'm suffering, according to X, and only X knows the real answer to the problem and only X knows the real reactions to these problems and only with bogus witness (people suckered into listening to X or helping X). She is full of shit.

It's only X's accomplices and her own relatives who are helping X fuck me over.

No matter how many times I try to say it, or write it out, I do not want those people in my life, real life or otherwise. They are criminals. But with X always being the one who has to "explain" things, what do people expect to hear but only what X wants to say. **her sister, OH, just said that I'm crazy (in German) X's and her henchpeople's commands and harassment is sometimes in German. I think they tried to pass off the transtesticle thing they created as a German speaker**

X is a rapist who has had the lifelong opportunity to harass X's rape victim.

I use X in place of her name and I don't write "she" because they will just go through this later (with me probably agreeing with their rewrites, no less) and ask me things like, "who is 'she' there or here" and X will just make her 7,8,9,10-year old rape victim agree with her.

It seems like they get me to associate while I'm thinking or typing, because when I typed "9,10-year old" I thought of scotch, the drink, which is dumb because I don't drink, maybe once every 8 years or so, but X as mentioned before was/is a huge alcoholic, along with her sister, OH. X wants to drag people down to her own level.

**I just heard FF say "hey T (sister's name)" and trying to get me to answer or at least say something so they can claim that I think I'm her, or someone else, etc. They have a long list of bullshit.

I think X has some bogus claim that I agreed to what X is doing to me now, because X and her idiots want me to sign things that I don't even know what it is about. See previous post about trying to get me to sign a phony suicide letter. There is nothing I've typed, written, or in any way physically put on paper or online in their presence. But they claim they have so much proof, but it really is that they have been stupid enough to document the harassment they put to me.

**OH said a second ago, 'calm down' and I'm not even upset** But, I know they just flat out lie and if they say calm down, they are duping someone, trying to give people the wrong idea of how I'm feeling or to give people the wrong idea about my state of mind.** They prompt directions with things like "be emotional" "be ecstatic" etc, while they are putting on their dog and pony shows. They are just trying to dupe anyone that they show off what they can do to me (and others).

I'm not upset, they are the criminals, and anyone can read this blog and posts and get a real understanding of what they are really doing. But people like my relatives and X's relatives, know and see what they can do to them, so they don't say a word. "Better him than us," is their motto, I guess.

Like someone at work said, not out loud of course, but someone said months ago, "No one here is doing anything to you. It's just that when you come in here, (the sight of) people here induce you." Meaning, X and her henchpeople set up a trigger to start up their idiocy when I see something or someone in real life. They need craziness everywhere, and then they'll explain it they way they want it to be and their a bunch of bullshitters.

I hope they piss off the wrong person someday who will give them what they deserve.  "X is white trash. She'll get what she deserves someday," someone said to me in real life years ago.

So, it's 7:00pm and it's going to be another day of X and her henchpeople "waking up" the dumbass things they put me through (maybe years ago) and I have to listen to them and do things like pick up hot pans with bare hands, slap myself in the face three times, etc. And those things happen. It's a constant threat of what X and her henchpeople can make people do.

And the ever popular, "who are you when you do this/say that/?" And taking words they use as triggers even when I hear them say it randomly or think about a word or whatever. X and her bullshitter's conversations and phony ideas come through.

Even when they show people what they can make me do, they are showing people what criminals they really are.

Yesterday, after I asked my mom what Navy documents I came home with, and she said she never saw any, and she doesn't remember how I got home, X claims that X showed me the papers which somehow gives X the right to fuck me over. I've never read any or seen any, and how valid is it when X is forcing me to live in X's fantasy land that is only set up to cover X's rapist ass. **I heard X just say, "Don't you write this,"** meaning the word rapist. X tries to get me to say, or tries to tell others that I'm really meaning racist. X is a rapist and there's nothing X can do about it but victimize her victim as X has always done.

**X or someone just said, "talk to you later" No. I don't want to hear anything from them at anytime.**

Hasn't anyone ever asked X or X's henchpeople, "If he's so imcompetent, what kind of bitch are you to use an incompetent person?" Who are the real sickos here?