"IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD" ....... REALLY?

This is my life as I know it and as I'm only allowed to imagine it.  My life as I know it is the usual ordinary things everyone does while they're awake--go to work, go to the store, and all that.  My life as I imagine  it would be the thoughts I have running around in my head while I'm awake, things aren't what they seem to be.  My waking hours are filled with unfinished thoughts, intrusive thoughts, thoughts that I've been places and done things that I wouldn't even want to do.  Thoughts of being "guided" by people I knew in my life, people whom I don't want in my life for real.  I assume a psychologist would say it is the result of a guilty conscience, and I doubt it.  I don't have a doctor, never did, and I don't take any medication or drugs.

Some people claim their thoughts are controlled by people from the outside world, telling them what to do or being threatened by them.  Some of them turn their condition into being someone who is channeling spirits from the other world, and some people claim their condition is harassment from the government, or some implant in their heads from aliens that controls them.  I don't believe in any of that.

There is definitely such a thing as psychological harrassment.  Bulling and harassment happen in the real world every day. But what if the harassment moved from outside your head to the inside?  What if "It's all in your head" is not completely true?

I'm a fifty year old man and spend my waking hours at work or at home, a much less than remarkable life by anyone's standards.  I consider myself a victim of psychological harassment.  A case of being denigrated, humiliated, and conditioned. Not by aliens or the government or the netherworld.  By relatives and friends who try to hide their problems and crimes by keeping me quiet, and using the most effective ways there are.

So, I've learned quite a while ago that saying it out loud, trying to say what I want, ends up in my being called a crazy liar.  So, I don't even try explaining out loud what happened years ago or explaining what happens (or what I think is happening) today.  I'll write out what I think here, and people can judge for themselves.


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