Novermber 21, 2014

November 21, 2014   4:11 pm    Werner K Stoebermann Stobermann

Nothing new in real life today, just go to work, to the store and home. Finished putting in a new porch, but it took 3 months and there are still a few things to do with it.

Same old stuff at work. Some of the people that are delivering papers out of the warehouse also deliver another paper at another warehouse where my sister, J, manages. I remember how rude she treated me when I delivered some papers out of another warehouse. It got to the point that people who I didn't even know told her, "why the hell don't you get off his back?" I quit there because it really was nothing but trouble.

When I worked at a drug store in 1988, a coworker came up to me, after 5 months of working there, and asked if I was her brother. Then she said she went to grade school with J and started up a continuous series of questions, "J says your mother's crazy, is your mother really that crazy, she says she's crazy, she (J) had that baby with that Arab guy, is that true? did she have that baby with that guy?" Then she suddenly stopped and said, "You're not at all like J said you were." That's still the best compliment I've ever had.

I mention this because there is a guy at the warehouse I work at now who also delivers papers for J, and he's said things like, "You look like you're so out of it." Just last night, when I mentioned that I can't find my TV remote since I threw out the bed's box springs and knocked over the boxes that had the remote on it, he said, "So you're saying (or are you sure it wasn't that) you were drunk and knocked it over?" I told him I don't drink at all. Have never been a drinker or a problem drinker.

Years ago, I was smoking a cigarette with the car door open while waiting for the newspapers and some guy came running over and said, "Oh, I thought you were smoking pot." I wasn't. Haven't smoked pot since 1999, the year I started delivering papers.

A woman at the warehouse who knows my sister J, once said,just out of the blue, "I know you here voices. I know you do. What are they saying to you now? Huh? What are they saying now, ha ha."
I just stood there until she was finished and said, "Uhhh, they're telling me not to pay attention to you." Years later, she also said to me, "What did you and J do?"

Where do these people get these ideas? I don't know them other than working at the warehouse. And since all but one of them I mentioned above, know J. With her history of badmouthing me and my mother, she's probably primed anyone she can to have the mindset of " oh, he's just crazy" and then the just look for any misspeak or dumb thing I do, so their first thought would be "he's crazy."

When anyone asks about her, I just tell them they probably know better than I do because I don't see her but maybe once every 6 years. And I'm going to keep it that way, and she's still pulling the same harassment she's pulled since 1984.

I have no problem telling people to google my name if they want to know anything. The first search result would be this blog and they can find out more than they would ever need to know.

I posted a few things in the forum for the first time in about 10 months. Some of the same people are still posting there, and the same problems. It's a good place to go.

As for the voices, X's (the rapist/abuser) family have been continuing  their harassment. Always want me to put on a dress and play out their psychodramas they do when I'm asleep, and try to make me believe I have to wear a dress to be competent.

It's the training that X did in 1967 (see previous posts) that they are replaying, and some guy keeps saying "that is your point." He knows it isn't. He's being suckered into that to cover X's abusive ass. They want to take the rape and abuse of a child and turn it into some faggy or gender crap problem on a grown up.

They are despicable. I don't wear dresses, don't have the urge to wear dresses and they know it. They make themselves voices in the head to harass me, and they want to justify what X did years ago. With their intrusive thoughts, and psycho torture of "now you're incompetent. You pass the tests when you're "she."" I haven't taken any tests. From what I'm hearing, they have their questions with their prompted answers (way of intrusive thoughts) coming out of my mouth and then claim it's a split personality disorder.

It's the same abuse that was used on me 47 years ago. Like I tell them, I'd rather be the most incompetent man in the world than use the dress thing they try to train. What kind of psychiatrist would help them? Those other "personalities" are created by real people using decade's old abuse to keep me down and the abuser's asses covered.

Some real psychiatrist should look at this blog and see that they are just torturing me and trying to get an excuse for child abusers.