DECEMBER 15, 2013

December 15, 2013 7:36 pm EDT

Nothing new in real life. Still doing delivery during the night and working online during the day.

Otherwise, it's pretty much the same as it has been the past several decades. X the rapist and her relatives are still playing their head games with me. It is basically X and her relatives that I hear. They always prompt me to think about what they want to play out to their audience, i.e. it's their questions with their answers coming out of my mouth. And then I answer the way I want to, which is the truth of the matters they bring up, and of course, they edit what they don't want people to hear.

These topics they bring up are really inane and stupid and only serve X's purpose to bring up a subject, prompt me to give them their answer and when I contradict them with the truth, they go on and on about split personalities, there is a he and a she, and they are only helping with this faggoty problem, and on and on.  Enough people know what X did in 1967 and how she trained me, at age 7, to "want G's (my sister) dress," and put on her dog and pony show at the grade school I went to.

And of course, nowadays they're bullshit is that they are helping me to come out, and all I have to do is say I'm a faggot, and that I should say that I want to be a woman, and then every single problem will go away, and on and on and on. What garbage. X wants to play out her abuse and rape of me as a faggoty head problem. "Oh he alvays vanted to be his seeeester. He vasss so jealous of hees seeeter. Unt look, now he vants to keel heemself because he cannot be the voooman." No, not at all. X put me in her dress, and her crazy relatives are dumb enough to help her. I doubt that they even know what a crazy bitch X was and still is.

Another one of their pointless exercises is when I say that there are many witnesses through the years to all those events I've written about in this blog, it only takes them seconds to come back with, "Oh, I (or we) just talked to that person you claim knows about (whatever) and they say that never happened (or, that's not the way they remember it). First of all, X and her crazies wouldn't drag anyone into this crap because they are bullshitting and it is very transparent that they lie and play head games. FF dragged that friend of his that I worked with in 1986, but there are probably very few others they would use, other than to play something out for them as their "proof."

Secondly, how in the hell could they find someone that I knew 40+ years ago, let alone someone I knew 4 years ago? And why would anyone answer to them about such personal questions about being raped or abused or whatever? They think that just because they say that they found someone who is contradicting what I say that I should believe them. How stupid can they be? They are more desperate than anything.

One of their biggest bullshit is that they claim I  have memory problems, and they claim that they are needed to run this scam they're running because they are "helping" me remember, but all they are doing is putting out some bogus bullshit about everything under the sun. What's your favorite movie, what's your favorite this or that, who is  your original rapist, etc...They use the last question as an opening for them to prompt me into saying someone's name, and notice how they use the words "original rapist," because X is only one of them.

As for memory, I have a very good memory. My car's brake lines went out two weeks ago and the managers had to drive me around to do my deliveries. They drove while I delivered and I did my whole route by memory. I only looked at my map or route list maybe four times in the four days they helped me.

Yesterday, I thought, "How could X and her relatives know anything about me since I've only seen X three times in the past 20 years?" I've sure heard enough from her, but not seen her. She doesn't visit or call, and yet she claims to know what every single problem is and then comes up with some bullshit analysis of what she claims is the root of this or that so-called problem.

So, this afternoon when I woke up, I heard some asshole say that they are giving X the benefit of the doubt. I'm assuming that they are referring to anything I say about her. I just laughed. The only people I'm hearing are X and her relatives, who have gotten as nutty as she is. No big surprise that they would give her the benefit of their doubts. They are probably scared shitless of her. They know how nuts she is and wouldn't want to get on the receiving end of her craziness. If they don't know about how abusive she really was 40+ years ago, they sure know about her recent crap because they help her play it out. They are as criminal as she is and they know what they are doing should send them to jail.

I might as well recap who these people are:

X, the rapist. She runs this scam on me and the outside world. Abusive piece of crap is what she is.

CC, X's daughter. She passes herself off as just about anything. She prompts the crap that X wants her to do. CC is probably crazy. Something must have snapped in her head when she got beaten by her father and I was forced to watch. She also is the "model" for the woman they claim I am. Copy CC taking a bath, copy CC doing this or that, and on and on. I don't know if she knows that her mother is a rapist, because she was probably still in her room when X did rape me. I know FF saw it because X went crazy as ever when he giggled and she realized that she was being watched. Her own son saw her orally rape me.

I'm certain it was CC who is the fat faced woman who was in my parents bedroom when my nephew was killed. I heard some guy's voice identify her as she left the house that day.

CC is the main prompter to her mother's crap. One of her favorite topics is that, according to her, they caught me red handed abusing a child. Really? I've seen her once since 1973, and that was at her grandmother's funeral in the early 2000s. Her father pointed her out to me there and when I went up to her and called her by her nickname, she just turned me around and pushed me away and said something like she didn't need this. She knows she's a negative hallucination (as are the rest of X's relatives) and she knew that someone had to point her out to me.

That's the same way when, about four years ago, I saw her, she looked to her left and asked someone (probably her mother, X) "where is he? I've waited for this for 25 years," and on and on. Then she threatened me, saying, "When we fuck somebody up, they stay fucked up." She's wrong about that.

FF, X's son. Got his hair pulled out by his father when he kept pulling out his dick at their dining room table after he got raped. He was about 3 or 3 and a half. I'm certain he was the guy who was in my parent's bedroom who found the porn picture in the nightstand. "Look what I found," he said. and I looked and CC looked, and that's her excuse for killing. "He (meaning me) saw my face." Just an excuse. They planned that and knew how it would end beforehand.

FF is a hard drug user. Got busted for selling cocaine in late 1986. It most likely was crack, and he probably got it from his uncle. Someone in real life told me that his uncle sells drugs, and I remember when I was about 12 or so when he came over to my house and gave my sister something that was "better than the last stuff" and she'd like it. Then he took off. FF's uncle must have been selling drugs for a long time.

Fatso, the guy from the store in 1985 and just about every where else I've worked or any store I go to. This is X's brother, FF's uncle the dope dealer. He thinks it's his job to show people the crap his family puts on people to cover up X the rapist and just about everything else, including my nephew's killing.

He hangs around FF, trying to train FF to humiliate anyone he can because that's the way they were raised, to take what they want from people when they want it. Even taking lives, if they have to.

This was the guy who was with his sisters when they woke me up at my grandmother's hospital bed. He's also the one who starts trouble in public and then, lo and behold, he's the one who has to explain what's going on, only his explanations are nothing but crap full of phony associations I have that they claim are true, and on and on.

The description of the rest of them will have to wait until tomorrow. OH and MR, X's sisters, and MR's husband, who is a real asshole. Basically, X the rapist and her children and her siblings have been the harassers the past 46 years. They are all despicable people and have done all the damage they could do, but they still try to fuck people up. It's clearly mental problems on their part.

They claim they are saving their reputations, but I remind them that they have alcoholics, druggies, drug sellers, coke heads, arsonists, con artists, a killer, a rapist, and someone who was sentenced to life in prison in their family. If that's the reputation they don't want tainted by someone talking about them, then...