April 19, 2016 1:49 am
Some changes since last post. It's been a while. The dog died in early July, he had stomach cancer. I don't deliver papers anymore, not since end of July 2015. The water pump gasket on the car blew and I drove it for about month just replacing the antifreeze every trip. Then the gas line blew out in the parking lot, so there was a big pool of both antifreeze and gas that day. It was a Sunday, which made it worse. So it was time to give up the job. The car was just falling apart and you can't keep a job if the job depends on the car. The car won't pass emissions test in a few months, so I think my driving days will be over.
My working days are over, too. I could make some money online, but it's really not worth it when you have to listen to X the rapist's family still harassing and badgering. They still demand that I put on dresses and all that faggy gender crap that their asshole X started in 1967. They want to take rape and abuse on a child and turn it into a faggy, gender psychobabbly crap. Not going to happen. That's not me and not what I want.
And then they "offer" this or that if I do what they say. "Everything will go away." No it won't. They are criminals covering their asses by making their victims look incompetent and what's worse, their manipulated, cut and paste conversations make their victims look like their victims are backing them up.
X's sister in law, MH, said "You misinterpret everything." Because we're not having the same conversation is what it is. Things I say or think are supposed answers to their questions, questions I didn't even hear. They are fucked up, sick pieces of shit.
They're not very clever anymore, either, after 30 years of this. ** constantly asking "who's that?" isn't working for them anymore.** OH, that bitch, goes on and on with "Oh, he worked so hard on his college degree." No I didn't work hard at all. It was easy. They want people to think that I'm so upset about not getting a job and this and that...I didn't go to get a job. It was something to do and that's all. And with as many people who asked through the years as to why I don't have a good job, I told them that wasn't the point of going to college at all, so if OH tries to use that as a "his real problem is.." she might look like a fool if the right person hears her.
It's laughable what CF has been saying lately. "He cheated all the way through school." And she writes on my hand and tries people to believe that I was doing that. I never did that. Didn't have to How fucked up is she. I got A's in almost everything from kindergarten to college. Really. And there are hundreds of people who could tell you that.
They use that kind of stuff to try to get me upset. "Why aren't you emotional?" Because I'm not. They are the criminals, not me. I hear them yell a bunch of shit like, "Do your homework." and then they want me to think that it's my father who said things like that. I have never in my life heard anyone tell me to do homework, because it was done as soon as I got home. No one had to tell me to study.
They want to make it look like my parents were a couple of bullies, which they weren't. And, by the way, I know who my mother is, and it it's X. They've been putting it out there that I think that X was my mother. So tell the bitches to fuck off. And I never have called X my mother, she wass a motherfucker, but not mine.
Oh, I just insulted the goddess. Her family's going to do their ooga booga shit and strike me with lightning.
They want me to image that x the rapist is "coming through me to guide me" I tell them no and they come up with some laughable crap like, "He does not accept the goddess." I laughed my ass off. Such childish crap. But they still are dangerous. Veiled threats like, "Don't go masturbating in front of children," etc. They are blackmailers. I tell them to put up or shut up.
When I'm hearing what they are saying and think about the real answers to their crap, I hear them say, "We're not talking to you, " or, "Shut up, Werner." They still want to play the split personality crap that I wouldn't even imagine or agree to doing.
And one of their assholes says, and really threatening, "Don't you ever disagree with X." Meaning the crap that X the rapist and her daughter, CF, and son, FF, created is the crap I'm supposed to agree with. I hear them ask me questions and the bitch CF or another one of their assholes say something like, "think number 2." Evidently, their questions have more than one answer and they want theirs to be first.
CF said two of my sister's names, out of the blue, no context at all, and I was supposed to choose, I'm guess. It's X the rapist's abuse. They're trying to cover up X training me to "want the dress" by passing it off as "He wanted to be his sister." Not at all. X, among others, were using that to say, "Who are you going to believe? Me or this thing I created?"
People back off because they know that X and her relatives will make their victims pay if anyone questions what they are doing. Too bad for the cowards who help them, knowing full well they ruined people's lives. But, of course, it's the typical, "See what you made me do to you?" abusers excuse.
They are still trying to pass me off as a drunk or druggie. Their only witnesses are their own fucked up relatives, who are probably being lied to about what's going on. They really are the biggest druggies and drunks I've seen. And a couple of generations of it.
The best thing that's happened lately (not my sister's husband's death, as the assholes want me to think) is that X the rapist's son, FF, got shot. Not to death, unfortunately, but shot with a shotgun in late November.
I didn't know this until February, I read it in the newspaper. Evidently he was living with some guy and they were growing pot in the basement. Now, it doesn't take much thought that the guy who was living with him has already been fucked over by FF's family (CF just tried to make me think "fucked over by his (FF's) mother, who is dead for 3 years now....and it was a good day then.) But, no doubt this guy go the torture treatment, loaded up with a bunch of punishment if he does anything to their baby.
Anyway, this guy moved out and a month later wanted his lights and grow stuff back. FF probably gave him a lot of shit because the guy had to there armed to get it. It ends up that the stuff is on the curb and FF is drunk with a shotgun and standing on the porch. The guy shot at him and got him in the face and neck or something. Non fatal. Damn.
Finally, people are starting to take shots at that family. Way overdue, if you asked me.
So FF was charged with endangering children (children stayed their sometimes and they sold pot in front of the children) and a bunch of drug charges. There's a school close and that makes it worse, in the eyes of the law, and he had nine guns. Nine guns? Who the hell would let him have nine guns? His fucking family gets pissed off if you look at them the wrong way, and they let him have nine guns. He got 3 years in jail, suspended for some stupid reason, and put on parole.
(I'm way past the point of being on their shit list, but they can't stop their harassment because they have "too much invested" in it to just stop. They need me to repeat their bogus bullshit stories.
OH wants me to spell something. They have this thing about me not winning the spelling bee in grade school, but my sister did, and they are still looking for crap that I'm supposed to be jealous about. There are none. I don't begrudge anyone anything. Good for them, I say.
So FF is on parole, has to pay money here and there, and he can't have alcohol or drugs. That's a fate worse than death. No alcohol or drugs. That's what his family has been about for decades. FF was convicted of selling cocaine in 1986, and didn't get any jail time, and again now. He's going to fuck it up, no doubt. And it's going to be his family to blame because they are either going to enable him with drugs and alcohol, or they're going to fuck his head over by being overbearing bitches and drive him nuts.
They try to pass FF off as someone who is helping me. He isn't. They never wanted to help. They want to harass, provoke, get X's abuse passed off as faggy gender stuff, blackmail with threats and idiotic thoughts. "I got your math," said CF, I told her, "Keep it. You need it more than I do." FF wasn't helping, he is a bastard. I don't want any of them in my life and I'm not buying into their "treatment."
When I found out that FF was arrested, I laughed. Finally, they got what was coming. I really feel bad for that guy who shot him, I know FF and his family, and they already fucked a lot of people over. They got away with murder. Anyway, I emailed his lawyer and told him to check and double check any character references if it goes that far. I said I do not support FF or his relatives in any way shape or form. And his relatives are known to coerce and intimidate people.
I don't care if it seemed odd to email his lawyer, but I don't want them to drag anybody into their shit, because they use people and then say, "Oh, well. We already did it and now you just have to agree."
***I'm not even done with this blog post and I'm already getting yelled at by Fatso***
A few days ago, I have decided to choose homelessness after my mother dies. I thought of those times that they said, "Look at your room." And it's some frilly crap. And the time FF was showing me a trailer and said, "Here is your bathroom..." I said, "Fuck no, I know what you're doing." I'm supposed to have thoughts of those assholes even after moving.
Future failure is what it's called. Rehearse the future with psychodramas played out and in the middle of it, they make sure their victims break down.
So, I thought, I don't have to go through their "training." They want the thought of that rapist, X, to "guide" me. What insane pieces of shit X and her family are. They want a rape victim to be "guided" by the rape victim's victimizer. They are Nazis. Nazi treatment is what it is, and the supposed cure is to turn the abuse into a lifestyle.
They are nuts.
I'm not buying into their shit. I have nothing to lose. If I do something, they say they "let me" do this or that. I'm not buying into their crap, I know the truth about those idiots. They were harassing me long before I said anything about X the rapist, and if her family didn't know, it's too bad for them. They were suckered into harassing people and they're dumb enough to do it for 30 years.
Really, I survived almost 5 decades of abuse from X the rapist, her family, and my own relatives, and I'm not in the least bit interested in their cure. I have nothing to lose at all. They have no leverage. All their threats and harassment isn't getting them anywhere. "We can put you away and you won't even know it," they say. So what? "We have pictures of you molesting children." So what? Life in jail is better than listening to their crap. (They would be nuts to have any kind of that crap in their house.)
So I will be homeless by choice. Working is out of the question. Every job I've had turned into their playground with all their, "I'll show you what he really is." Training me into what they want people to believe isn't getting them anywhere.
Like someone said decades ago, "X is just white trash who's going to get what's coming to her." It looks like X was white trash and her relatives are the ones who are getting what X had coming to her. They're dumb enough to waste their lives carrying on X's abuse.
I don't bargain with anyone, especially with shit like X and her family.
